why not stop struggling?

سْــــــــــــــمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيْـــــمِ
In the name of God, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

my End round exam where just around the corner,

but I didn't finished study yet due to my laziness

so,I put the blame on this very cold weather

I kept on blaming and at the end I got nothing

so,for whom out there where just like me

let me share this touching story  

About Struggling...

A man found a cocoon of a butterfly. One day a small opening appeared. He sat and watched the butterfly for several hours as it struggled to force its body through that little hole. Then it seemed to stop making any progress. It appeared as if it had gotten as far as it could, and it could go no further.

So the man decided to help the butterfly. He took a pair of scissors and snipped off the remaining bit of the cocoon.

The butterfly then emerged easily. But it had a swollen body and small, shriveled wings.

The man continued to watch the butterfly because he expected that, at any moment, the wings would enlarge and expand to be able to support the body, which would contract in time.

Neither happened! In fact, the butterfly spent the rest of its life crawling around with a swollen body and shriveled wings. It never was able to fly.

What the man, in his kindness and haste, did not understand was that the restricting cocoon and the struggle required for the butterfly to get through the tiny opening were Allah's way of forcing fluid from the body of the butterfly into its wings so that it would be ready for flight once it achieved its freedom from the cocoon.

Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our lives. If Allah allowed us to go through our lives without any obstacles, it would cripple us.

We would not be as strong as what we could have been. We could never "fly"!

I asked for Strength......... And Allah gave me Difficulties to make me strong.I asked for Wisdom......... And Allah gave me Problems to solve.
I asked for Prosperity......... And Allah gave me Brain and Brawn to work.
I asked for Courage......... And Allah gave me Danger to overcome.
I asked for Love.......... And Allah gave me Troubled people to help.
I asked for Favours......... And Allah gave me Opportunities.
I received nothing I wanted ........ I received everything I needed!

fatabâraka-LLahu aHsanu-l khâliqîn

'So blessed be Allah, the best of creators!

Sura The Believer (23) verse 14

p/s:in everything you do: 'if you cannot avoid it,enjoy it'

how time passed by

سْــــــــــــــمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيْـــــمِ

Dengan nama Allah yg Maha pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang

ni hadiah utk anak kak yana & abg syafiq

yusra namanya..

hari tu mira ckp,

''untunglah semua baby yang Andi kenal

dpt hadiah''

aku suka sgt dgn budak2 sebab dorang sentiasa happy

kalau nangis pun still nampak comel lagi kan

sebab tu aku cakap dgn mama

nanti aku graduate,

aku mahu ambil anak angkat.

(^_^)v~

p/s:   MIRACLE IS JUST ANOTHER NAME FOR HARD WORK 

watak kedua

سْــــــــــــــمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيْـــــمِ
Dengan nama Allah yg Maha pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang

opss..lagu ni tiada kena mengena dgn saya (^_^)v~

setiap kali tgk drama2 korea,

ada satu benda yang aku selalu tak puas hati

KENAPA WATAK KEDUA SANGAT PATHETIC?

watak kedua mesti lelaki yg baik,berusaha keras utk mendptkan heroin

watak pertama mesti jahat

but at the end 

yang jahat jugak jd pilihan heroin

aku selalu membebel kalo tgk cerita korea

sampailah satu hari housemate aku bersuara

''DALAM SOAL CINTA,

TIADA ERTI KATA 'USAHA  TANGGA KEJAYAAN'

JODOH TU KETENTUAN ALLAH''

owh....>.<

so girls out there,if u're really in love wif someone

never ever try to get them

as love come soft and silence

p/s:peeewwiiiittt 

Lambaian Ka'bah

سْــــــــــــــمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيْـــــمِ

Dengan nama Allah yg Maha pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang

Alhamdulillah dah dekat sebulan dah aku bergelar pelajar tahun 4,

rasa macam tak percaya je kan

cepat masa berlalu 

Memandangkan nama aku start dengan huruf Alif 

so,aku masuk group A

group A start dengan subjek Opthalmology

such an interesting subject,but scary too,hahaha

so,basically my studies now is fully related to eye

best best best!!!

yang tak best nya part volunteer any new instrument

sebab asyik-asyik budak2 group suruh aku

sebab mata aku kan besar

senang sket nak tgk structures dekat mata

teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet!!!

but that not the main story for today

hari tu,ada sorang doctor ni

suddenly tengah lecture,phone doctor tu bunyi

''labbaikallahu ma labbaik''

ya Allah,rasa nak nangis je time tu

teringat kenangan time buat umrah

time ustaz suruh zikir dalam bas

rindu

sangat sangat

even s'kang,kalau ada org post gambar ka'bah dekat FB

hati rasa sayu je

sebak sebab rindu

banyak sangat peristiwa indah dekat sana

tapi ada satu yg sangat-sangat menyentuh hati

bila ingat kenangan tu

mesti sebak

masa tu tgh tawaf

aku dgn aisah housemate aku tawaf dekat dgn ka'abah

dengan harapan nak cium hajaratul aswad

tapi setiap kali sampai dekat tempat tu

ramai sgt orang

memandangkan kami kecil

sah-sah tak dapat nak cium hajaratul aswad

aku doa dalam hati

''Ya Allah,kalau Engkau tak bagi aku pegang atau cium batu dari syurga-Mu ya Allah,

Engkau bagilah aku peluang untuk memandangnya dengan jelas''

tapi sampai ke pusingan tawaf yang terakhir aku tak dapat jugak tgk hajaratul aswad

sedih sangat

keesokan harinya,masa solat zohor dekat masjidil haram

aku solat setentang dgn hajaratul aswad

dengan harapan dapat tengok

tapi disebabkan ramai sangat orang aku tak dapat tgk

sampailah rakaat yang terakhir

aku terlambat nak sujud

masa tu orang lain semua dah sujud

''YA ALLAH HAJARATUL ASWAD!!!

Allah makbulkan jugak doa aku

aku dapat tgk batu  syurga itu dengan jelas sekali

air mata berlinang

same goes here

dalam hidup ni,kadang-kadang tak semua yang kita doa,kita dapat terus

but just remember one thing

HE WILL ALWAYS ANSWER OUR PRAYER

 AT THE RIGHT TIME AT THE RIGHT  PLACE

Ah,rindunya (^_^)

Firman Allah dalam Al-Mu'min ayat 60 "Wa qala rabbukum ud'uni istajib lakum..... "Dan Rabmu berfirman: "Berdoalah kepadaKu, niscaya akan Aku (Allah) mengabulkan untukmu..."

Ikan OH Ikan

سْــــــــــــــمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيْـــــمِ

Dengan nama Allah yg Maha pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang

dulu,kalau mama masak ikan,

akulah orang first yg duduk di meja makan,

tapi sejak termakan ikan buruk+jaket dekat asrama

sriusly,aku fobia makan ikan

bau hanyir ikan tu masih segar di ingatan

walaupun aku tak suka makan ikan

tapi aku suka masak ikan

like seriusly???

yups,sebab kalau aku masak ikan for sure aku tak makan

dan...

tidak akan berlaku penambahan berat ke atas aku

muahahaha

as for you,my dear BFF,I prepare this for you,

manalah tau hatimu terbuka mau masak makanan ni kan..

1.FISH CURRY RECIPE 

bahan2:

-2 ulas bawang merah & bawang putih(ditumbuk lumat)

-ikan

-kari

-daun kari

-minyak bijan

-minyak masak

-susu cair

-sos tiram

-tomato

cara2:

1.panaskan minyak then tumis bawang sehingga naik bau

2.masukkan susu cair,kari,sos tiram,daun kari,minyak bijan,panaskan dengan api sederhana sehingga mendidih

3.masukkan ikan dan reneh sampai ikan masak,sebelum angkat masukkan tomato

4.hidang

see...I told u this is easy

2.SWEET AND SOUR

recipe???malas mau taip..cepat2 on skype,my holiday is really going to meet its end..

 

p/s:there's never a failure,it is just another lesson :)

Pesan Mama

سْــــــــــــــمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيْـــــمِ

Dengan nama Allah yg Maha pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang

Di suatu petang...

Mama: Dolly,dalam byk2 kawanmu yang dtg beraya tu,adakah yang men'tackle'anak mama ni

Aku: Adalah,kenapa ma?

Mama: Siapalah

Aku: ndak payalah mama tau,bukannya aku mau kawen jugak kan sama dorang >.<

Mama: Iya,Dolly nanti kawen sama doktor jugak ya,yang PAKAR TULANG,mama ni selalu suda sakit-sakit lutut

Aku: Ya lah ma,(dlm hati,erkkk mana mau carik Dr.Ortho ni,anyone?)

Bila fikir-fikir,aku ni dah tua sebenarnya.Dulu kalau buka cerita pasal kawin,mengamuk mama dibuatnya tapi sekarang......

Teringat kisah dekat Mekah,ada saorang orang Morroco tu dia tanya ''Do you make tawaf this morning?''

''oh,yes'',jawabku terharu sebab ada yang cam aku dalam ramai2 org.

Pastu dia tny lagi ''with your husband right?'' 

ERKKKK

SAYA BELUM KAWIN HARAP MAAF!!!

seriusly asal aku banyak kali kena soalan ni time dekat sana,orang lain tak kena pun,

muka tua sgt ke?muka mak2 orang?

Tetiba teringat peristiwa dekat Madinah hari tu,Ust tour guide tu cakap ''ana ni kawin muda sebab ana takut tak sempat ada zuriat dah kiamat,ana takut ana tak de zuriat untk berjuang demi Islam.

Terkedu...nak kawin pun masih tetap berfikir tentang Islam dan perjuangan.Insaf sekejap (>.<)''

Balik cuti kali ni mostly mama suruh aku yang masak,mama just observe dari jauh.Kalau tahun lepas mama tak bagi aku masak sebab...(fikir sendiri)

Tengah2 kusyuk masak mesti ada jak yang mama pesan

   ''kalau potong sayur tu cuci dulu baru potong kalau ndak nanti keluar   vitaminnya''

 ''Kalau masak sayur tu kasi masuk batangnya dulu,baru daunnya supaya ndak ter overcooked''

 ''kalau goreng ikan tu sebelum angkat tu ikan,kasi kuat dulu tu api sekejap supaya tu ikan garing,sedap kalau di makan''

 ''Kalau hidang minuman untuk papa,alas gelas tu pakai piring,nanti kalau kau suda kawin begitu jugak kau buat sama laki mu''

 ''time makan,duduk jak di meja makan biar pun kau ndak makan,temankan laki mu makan macam yang mama selalu buat''

 

''kalau cuci piring tu,cuci gelas dulu supaya gelas tu ndak berminyak,pastu baru cuci piring,mangkuk,periuk''

Adakah mama sedang melatih aku untuk menjadi seorang isteri?

TOO YOUNG FOR THAT I GUESS...

But for all the thing that my morther said to me,there's one thing that really capture my heart

it is when I ask

''ma,kenapa kalau mama masak mesti sedap?''

my mom said 

''sebab setiap kali mama masak,mama selawat,letak garam mama selawat,letak gula mama selawat

dengan niat

'Ya,Allah semoga apa yang aku masak ni sedap dan dapat mengenyangkan sesiapa yang memakannya'

apa pun yang kita buat,yang penting niat kita mesti ikhlas,kan''

:')

mood: I'm going to miss you mummy and all ur wisdom 

sayonara ma3ssalama BYE BYE BYE

سْــــــــــــــمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيْـــــمِ

Dengan nama Allah yg Maha pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

MAAF FIZIKAL DAN ROHANI

kurang kak Ina syak dalam picture ne

not so picture perfect

there many thing need to say 'BYE-BYE' lately

1.bye-bye to my hometown,Sabah

2.bye-bye to my one and only younger sister,Emma

1.BYE-BYE TO MY HOMETOWN,SABAH

Papa pindah kerja dekat Padang,Indonesia

perghhh jau glak ne

so,mama rancang kami pndah s'jung

maybe next year I guess

but this year maybe the last raya I had in Lahad Datu till I'm graduated

next year memang sure2 ar raya di sumatera

:')

ayat menyedapkan hati;

-cowok-cowok indonesia ganteng2

-makanan indonesia sedap jgak kan

-best jgak beraya beraya di tempat 0rg 

(=_=)''

bye-bye Renti,Langtam,Rentam...sob2x

2.bye-bye to my one and only younger sister,Emma

this raya was our last raya together

she's done her A-level

she'll be flying to Spain April next year

bye-bye Emma,do take care of your iman very well

:')

may Allah bless her now and always

make us proud will you,Engineer wannabe

so,that's all for now

there's nothing happen in my life lately

just an ordinary life

p/s:   Think less.Pray more.Do more
Allah is THE BEST PLANNER